PCs with Mandricardo

[silentscout]

MANDI SHITPOST LATER

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[duranduel]

...

In a place like this, does our death even matter, Lalli?

[silentscout]

Yes.

[He says that immediately, and firmly.]

Our last moments define the legacy we leave behind for those who come after us. I don't know about you I'm not going to have my legacy end up being "he was a coward who accepted his death without accomplishing anything of note". If I have to die, I'm going to make it count.

[duranduel]

Ha. Haha.

[Oh, that's a deadpan laugh from Mandricardo - his eyes are dark.]

I died in a valiant duel against a man who I thought I could easily defeat. I was mighty, and ferocious, and fought with all my skills.

[...]

And then I died even after all of that, even after using all my strength, and it didn't mean a thing. My legacy was nothing. It's nothing. So "our last moments define the legacy we leave behind...?" What is that crap?

[silentscout]

It's not crap. That wasn't your last moment. You're HERE, aren't you?

[duranduel]

That was my last moment of my human life. And my human life was made worthless in an instant. I have no legacy.

I'm just nothing but a magical copy that's fated to disappear soon, anyways.

[silentscout]

You say that, but I never knew you as a human. I only know you as you are now. And all I'm going to remember- assuming I outlive you- is what you've done here.

[duranduel]

...

[Yeah, maybe there's a point, there.]

I'm just...tired of believing I'm disappointing people.

[silentscout]

You're not disappointing people. That's your brain lying to you to make you miserable. Has anyone even told you that you disappoint them?

[duranduel]

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N...o?

[silentscout]

Then it's your brain trying to sabotage you. Stop listening to it when it tells you things like that.

[There is a sense of...not sympathy exactly, but understanding. It's fine, it's something he struggles with too.]

[duranduel]

[He's quiet for a long moment.]

...It's hard not to listen to, sometimes.

[silentscout]

Mmm, it is. But you have to try. Because if you don't, you'll keep hurting yourself like this.

[duranduel]

...

[He feels like he deserves it.]

[He feels like he needs to suffer.]

[Maybe suffering will make everything better, somehow. He doesn't know. It's just telling himself, over and over, that somehow, he needs to make up for everything he isn't.]

I...I don't want to let anyone down, Lalli. But I'm so scared, every moment of every day, that I will.

I just...want to do my best.

[silentscout]

...I know, I get it.

[Luckily it's not memshare week so Mandi won't get slammed with a rude memory, but instead he just gets the feeling that Lalli is going "oh same hat".]

"No mistakes." That's what I grew up hearing. That the scouts in my family have an important job, and it's so important that we have to be perfect at it. Because people die when scouts make mistakes. So, "no mistakes."

[duranduel]

A family of scouts...

[And a necessary responsibility, with lives at stake.]

In the midst of a plague...there's no room for error, huh.

[silentscout]

None.

...the first time I made a mistake, four people died. Mistakes like that can't keep happening.

I get it, I really do. But it sounds like your enemy isn't out in the wilds, but up here.

[He points to Mandricardo's forehead.]

[duranduel]

...I'm sorry to hear that.

[Lalli sounds like he knows what kind of responsibilities he holds. And that's right. In order to move forward, one must cross all obstacles. Even if the obstacle is yourself.]

And...yeah. Yeah, it is. [And he looks over at the other.] Does it...ever get easier?

[silentscout]

[He just goes 'mmn' at the first part, but as for the rest:]

Eventually. Just like anything else, you have to practice.

[duranduel]

Practice...

[He's been getting practice here, hasn't he?]

...Hm. You have a lot of experience with this kinda thing, Lalli. It's admirable.

[silentscout]

[Oh no he's going to get a little embarrassed about it now.]

Don't be weird about it! It's just how it is.

[duranduel]

W-Weird? Why weird? I'm just sayin' what I see, Lalli.

[And a light smile.]

You're pretty cool, you know.

[silentscout]

[Stooooop he's not cool!]

Well now I'm never talking to you again!

[His emotions give him away. He's embarrassed for being called cool and has gone all grumpy because of it. But he actually likes the praise, even if he can't admit to it.]

[duranduel]

[?????]

W-What? I'm not makin' fun of you, I swear! I mean it!

[silentscout]

Just forget it, okay? People don't usually call me cool.

[Huff huff he's trying to explain it but he's never been good at explaining himself.]

[duranduel]

...More people should?

[CLEARLY A SOLUTION]