[ He just tilts his head a bit downwards, looking really impressed. ]
...What if... what if whoever did that, that's who I really am?
[ And then, for a brief moment -- just a moment, Lalli might be seeing someone different. But it's just for a moment, and as soon as he blinks, double-takes, glances back, or anything -- he's just himself again. ]
...even if there is something else there, it's not you. It's something else.
You are Caiman. The guy who likes gyoza and baseball and doesn't want to kill anyone here because they're all friends. And even if someone else inside of you does things sometimes, that doesn't change who you are.
It's entirely possible to have one body with two souls in it. It happened to me, for a while. I got forced out of my own body and into someone else's for a few days. Any time I took control, it wasn't Emil doing something. It was me doing something using Emil's body.
If you had said it before, I could have defended you. I know enough about it to make a compelling argument and find a way to get the other 'thing' out of your body.
[What HE thinks is a compelling argument, at least.]
...but I don't blame you. For not wanting to tell.
...Never been asked that question. [ And he's never even thought about it. 'Cause, you know, he's always so happy and seemingly invulnerable to the miseries of the world. But he's not also about to reject Lalli on the spot here. ]
He just accepts it. God I wish I was at the canonpoint where I could share this mem just for this but know this happens in canon too and it's very sweet. ]
[Caiman is going to be executed in the morning and all they have is a slim hope that maybe there's a way to bring everyone back. Everything is definitely not fine.
But it's okay to say that now, right? He doesn't want Caiman to be scared.]
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[ The slightest slump of his shoulders, a release of tension but only due to resignation. ]
You're still going to call me that? After today?
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...I didn't vote for you. Like I said I wouldn't.
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I don't get why she'd kill, either.
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I don't have a reason to kill Molly. He and I were -- we were really similar.
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[He does, really.]
But that means it's even more important to find out why it happened.
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Lalli, I don't think it's like what was going on with Rupert and Byleth.
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When Beau punched me, she... I felt something weird. Something different, and horrible well up inside of me.
I'd felt it, before... before coming here.
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[ He just tilts his head a bit downwards, looking really impressed. ]
...What if... what if whoever did that, that's who I really am?
[ And then, for a brief moment -- just a moment, Lalli might be seeing someone different. But it's just for a moment, and as soon as he blinks, double-takes, glances back, or anything -- he's just himself again. ]
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...even if there is something else there, it's not you. It's something else.
You are Caiman. The guy who likes gyoza and baseball and doesn't want to kill anyone here because they're all friends. And even if someone else inside of you does things sometimes, that doesn't change who you are.
It's entirely possible to have one body with two souls in it. It happened to me, for a while. I got forced out of my own body and into someone else's for a few days. Any time I took control, it wasn't Emil doing something. It was me doing something using Emil's body.
It's the same for you, I think.
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But he does glance back up at Lalli, then down. Just fiddling with his fingers a little bit. ]
It's a shit answer to give to people who are angry or sad at a place like trial and it's clearly not going to work as a clearing thing.
[ ... ]
But...
...Thanks, Lalli.
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[What HE thinks is a compelling argument, at least.]
...but I don't blame you. For not wanting to tell.
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I never even knew it was a thing that could happen. To begin with.
[ He drops his gaze, once again. ]
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[Lalli drops his gaze too.]
...it's still alright. It's not your fault.
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Thanks, Lalli.
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[Lalli doesn't know either. Trusting Caiman just comes naturally to him, like it's how things should be.
...he's going to scoot a little closer now, before asking a question:]
I'm not good at this kind of thing, but would a hug help right now?
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...Never been asked that question. [ And he's never even thought about it. 'Cause, you know, he's always so happy and seemingly invulnerable to the miseries of the world. But he's not also about to reject Lalli on the spot here. ]
Sure.
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It's not a very strong one and it doesn't last long, he's really bad at the hugging thing. But he doesn't want Caiman to feel alone.]
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He just accepts it. God I wish I was at the canonpoint where I could share this mem just for this but know this happens in canon too and it's very sweet. ]
...Thanks.
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[Caiman is going to be executed in the morning and all they have is a slim hope that maybe there's a way to bring everyone back. Everything is definitely not fine.
But it's okay to say that now, right? He doesn't want Caiman to be scared.]
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