[ compared to the gym, this is an oasis. this private moment before they have to return to the terrible reality that awaits them on wiwaldi campus. but with lalli holding onto him, the soft press of lips, it's -
better. kon is more grounded now that he's had a moment where grief and anger aren't at the forefront. so it's easier to take a deep breath when they pull back. though...
oh. emotionshare week gives away the weird flipflop that smile causes when he opens his eyes - hm, bad? no, not bad; unexpected - and it makes kon smile a little more, too. ]
Well, now I've got to get things figured out for real, make sure I get to see more smiles like that. [ it's not that he thinks lalli doesn't smile, or feel emotions, because he's seen it and he's felt it. it's more that he'll indulge that stupid alpha hindbrain thought of being selfish and wanting more of it. ]
[This churning of positive emotions and pleased nervousness is a much better emotion feedback loop to get into. Far, far better than the panic from earlier in the evening. And it helps, because Lalli's smile does dip into a more neutral look, mostly because he was called out on smiling and he is contrary like that. But his emotions give him away, because the happiness thrumming in his veins hasn't gone away. It makes him seem more like a pleased cat than anything else.]
Well, you know kisses get smiles.
[But only in relative private, like this. Lalli would die if he was kissed in front of everyone.]
[ stop, his contrary cat behavior makes him even more warm. adorable. (a moment passes in the back of his brain that reminds him of winter bonding activities, and something he said, and he has to contemplate that for a following beat before deciding yeah that checks out, huh.) ]
I see. [ that gets filed away, and kon brings his hands up to lalli's face. rubs his thumbs a little where he'd seen tears, in the gym, before ducking forward again and kissing his forehead between his very neutral (ok lalli) eyebrows. ] Okay, I'll remember that.
[ and he doesn't need to be told not in public to know that's a boundary in place, knowing how lalli is. ]
But, luckily, I'm pretty good at figuring things out.
[His heart flutters at that gentle kiss. Lalli has always been iffy about what kinds of touches he finds acceptable and what kinds of touches he avoids, but he's quickly finding that kisses are going into the "definitely okay" category. Especially Kon kisses, and especially where nobody is there spying on them. He is still Finnish after all, can't have public displays of affection! Luckily Kon seems to get that, and that will avoid future conflicts.]
Mmm, you are.
[He reaches up towards Kon's forehead, using his fingertips to gently sweep Kon's bangs out of his face. He's trying to tuck them to the side behind his ear, but if they're not long enough for that then just 'swooped to the side' is enough. He wants to look at Kon's face more clearly.]
I like that about you. You don't have to be told obvious things.
[Kon really did win Lalli over by figuring out his touch issues and asking about boundaries, after all.]
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Date: 2021-07-12 10:45 pm (UTC)better. kon is more grounded now that he's had a moment where grief and anger aren't at the forefront. so it's easier to take a deep breath when they pull back. though...
oh. emotionshare week gives away the weird flipflop that smile causes when he opens his eyes - hm, bad? no, not bad; unexpected - and it makes kon smile a little more, too. ]
Well, now I've got to get things figured out for real, make sure I get to see more smiles like that. [ it's not that he thinks lalli doesn't smile, or feel emotions, because he's seen it and he's felt it. it's more that he'll indulge that stupid alpha hindbrain thought of being selfish and wanting more of it. ]
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Date: 2021-07-13 03:06 am (UTC)Well, you know kisses get smiles.
[But only in relative private, like this. Lalli would die if he was kissed in front of everyone.]
I'm sure you can figure out other things too.
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Date: 2021-07-13 05:12 am (UTC)I see. [ that gets filed away, and kon brings his hands up to lalli's face. rubs his thumbs a little where he'd seen tears, in the gym, before ducking forward again and kissing his forehead between his very neutral (ok lalli) eyebrows. ] Okay, I'll remember that.
[ and he doesn't need to be told not in public to know that's a boundary in place, knowing how lalli is. ]
But, luckily, I'm pretty good at figuring things out.
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Date: 2021-07-13 12:10 pm (UTC)Mmm, you are.
[He reaches up towards Kon's forehead, using his fingertips to gently sweep Kon's bangs out of his face. He's trying to tuck them to the side behind his ear, but if they're not long enough for that then just 'swooped to the side' is enough. He wants to look at Kon's face more clearly.]
I like that about you. You don't have to be told obvious things.
[Kon really did win Lalli over by figuring out his touch issues and asking about boundaries, after all.]